yesterday was a hard day, by anyone's standards. i realized a lot about the ppl i love. and i realized a little more about how strong my heart really is. i found out that i waited to long to fix things. that when someone walks away from you the first time, that is when you are suppose to beg them to stay. and i learned that some ppl can fall out of love on the drop of a dime.
what am i going to do with all this new knowledge? nothing. i screwed up the life i had. so i have no choice but to move forward with what i can. so what moves forward with me? well, my son. that one amazing spark of hope that i have for the future. the one that loves me and still thinks that when i kiss his boo boos that they are magically better. the one that trusts everything out of my mouth without a glimmer of doubt that it might not be true. the one person on the planet that i would not hesitate to kill for, or die for. i have a few friends that will make the cut. no all of them because i realized that some of the ppl that i thought were such good friends are not at the same place in their lives that i am. i need ppl who are on the same page. that have the same goals and ambitions in life. ppl who are positive and are driven for success.
as for love. i dunno if i will ever trust my heart again. and it doesn't really matter right now. my heart belongs to someone and when i get it back then i will start on the journey to repair and learn to love again.
what am i going to do with all this new knowledge? nothing. i screwed up the life i had. so i have no choice but to move forward with what i can. so what moves forward with me? well, my son. that one amazing spark of hope that i have for the future. the one that loves me and still thinks that when i kiss his boo boos that they are magically better. the one that trusts everything out of my mouth without a glimmer of doubt that it might not be true. the one person on the planet that i would not hesitate to kill for, or die for. i have a few friends that will make the cut. no all of them because i realized that some of the ppl that i thought were such good friends are not at the same place in their lives that i am. i need ppl who are on the same page. that have the same goals and ambitions in life. ppl who are positive and are driven for success.
as for love. i dunno if i will ever trust my heart again. and it doesn't really matter right now. my heart belongs to someone and when i get it back then i will start on the journey to repair and learn to love again.
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